Tuesday, September 23, 2008

How this hurts my heart..........

I was in the bathroom washing Buttons hair and out of the blue Button says
"Aunty I want to live here"

I said "you are while your mum and dad are getting better"

She then said "No I don't want to go back there I want to stay and live here"

It blew me away!

When does a 3 year old become old enough to say something like that? This was out of the blue conversation nothing prompted and yet she felt she needed to tell me that...

At that age does she know what she is saying or am I way off base here?

it left me with a huge lump in my throat....

How I wanted to tell her that everything would be ok and that she would always feel safe..... I couldn't... Hell sometimes you heart just isn't ready for such powerful words

9 comments:

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

How sad is that but good knowing that she is feeling that safe and loved with you...

Maggie said...

Oh, that's so sad. I'm sure you responded just beautifully -- with empathy and understanding... but no promises.

Sassy said...

I think she knows what she's saying, but she wouldn't understand the impact and consequences of that.

It's crushing, but it's beautiful that she able to recognise she's somewhere safe and happy now.

Christine said...

This is so hard. You have a vital role inthese children's lives. Big hugs.

Paula said...

What a compliment. You obviously are making her feel safe and secure.

OziMum said...

Its a cruel world, sometimes... thankfully there are wonderful families like yours, that give some relief - if not for a short time.

April said...

I can see how that would hurt. My hat is off to you. We have talked about foster care so many times and I just don't know how you let them go back. You are amazing.

living4him5 said...

I'm praying for you and button. That had to hurt your heart. God bless you for what impact you're making in that childs life.

Sending hugs and prayers,
Amy

MMrussianadoption said...

just getting caught up. hugs. this must been the hardest part of this journey for you