Wordless Wednesday

Geting into the swing of work! And week One! And!!!

This week has been a really good week!

I have almost stuck to my diet! LOL Broke out today and had a not so great lunch today! But the rest of the week I went really well!! And I got out and exercised 3 times this week so I can say week one of diet did ok!! I will weight myself on Monday!


I worked this week and really have started to feel SO much better about work!! I don't feel like I am going to totally lose my mind! Knowledge is power and the more I learn the more I don't feel so worried!! AND IN no way do I know everything about my job!

I also get to work in the kids house this week so I am looking forward to doing that! More learning heheh Hey brain might explode :P

WE MAY have a foster care placement coming up! But still waiting for more info on that!! All I know so far is it is a BOY who is 3!

Did you know that 20 kilograms = 44.09 pounds?

And starting today I am needing to lose that amount! Ugh I knew I was overweight but I didn't know I was over the top over weight!!! UGH!!!!!

I have to say looking at that target at the moment it seems so outta reach!!?!?!

I really need healthy eating ideas!!!

My biggest fault would be my snack eating and I need health ideas for it!!

Ahhh and if you have a sec wish me luck!

Panic attacks are H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E.

In my new job I look after people with disabilities who live in grope homes. In our area there are 6 homes with 2-5 people in each home. I have been doing a shift in a new each day.. So on top of getting to know my job I felt like I had been throw into the deep end with no floaties

Today was REALLY horrible! I was at work and about 2 hours into my 4th day ay my new job! And I had a full blown panic attack! Nothing was working I couldn't calm my self. I told the girl (I was shadow shifting)That I need to get out of there.

I came home and just bawled my eyes out! I called Al at work and told him what was happening. Deciding the best idea was to call my boss and talk.


I told my boss how overwhelmed I was feeling about the job and how I felt going from one house to the next house to the next I was really feeling like I couldn't cope it was too much to take in and that if I was excepted to work by my self after these few shifts I didn't think I would be able to be the right person for the job...

My boss was so very understanding. She her self has had panic attacks before and she has only been in her job only 2 months so knows very well how overwhelmed I am feeling.

After talking my boss and I have decided that I will only work in two house's until I get a feel for the job... And that I would do more shadow shifts....

That I have attacks I know they are no where as bad as they use to be! Days like today bring it all back down to earth...

I need to get back up again.

Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you Stand

Priceless

First week of new school DONE

Extra fuel driving to new school $20

Counseling sessions $80 per week x 8 weeks

New school uniforms $300

Hearing your son say he loves you and thanks mum for the first time in 3 months

PRICELESS

I really wish that I had done this 6 months ago! My heart so struggled with making this decision and now that we have done it! And the kids have been going to the new school for a week! They have settled in so much better than I had even dreamed they would!

Tiarna's teacher told me that she really has relaxed into the class asking lots of questions and socialzation really well! When I asked Tiarna how her class was she said it was 100 times better.

Kagen well were do I start? First it was seen this smile on my son that I really have missed! That was the first day of new school! When we asked how his day was he said it was and I quote from Kagen here "It was FANTABLOUS!"

Kagen is making friends and has already been invited to a birthday party and been over to visit a new friend!

For me one of the biggest changes is seen that "spark" back in Kagen! The last 2 days Kagen for no reason at all has come to be and hugged me and told me he loves me! For the past few months he hasn't done that, he has been so withdrawn that even when I told him that I loved him he wouldn't answer back.

It was hard not hearing that from him and then this week to turn around out of the blue... Oh how my heart skipped a beat and I had to hold back those tears until he went away...

A weight has been lifted off his shoulders you can see Kagen standing that little bit taller!

Kagen has even seen that at his new school they will deal with kids straight away! There will be no bullying at all!

I know this has only been the first week but I also know that if in one week we can seen this much change then it was well worth all the pain and sleepless nights to see my son


smile again....

Wordless Wednesday almost

Ch CH ch CH changes!

I am going to pack a lot into this post! Because well a lot happened in the last few days!!

If you remember I had thought about changing the kids school!


Well its done! They start this Tuesday!

But I will back up a little!

I mentioned that in last weeks counseling session Kagen had named the bully's! Well I took the information to the school and did not get the answer I was hoping to hear! But hoped that they would at the least do what they said! THEY didn't!
Monday Kagen got hurt in front of the teacher!

The teacher told Kagen that he knows what this "CHILD" is like and well put up with it! HMMMMMMMMM NO NOT the answer I was hoping for here!

So back to the school talk to them again! Still fed the same life of BULL!

I also decided to ask for Kagen to be retested for his reading level as its been 6 months! I was sadden to find out that he has not moved up one level since the start of the school year! Again I question as to why nothing has been offered to help him?
Their answer "he is not at a bad enough level to require and extra help! If you want to get him a tutor"

Well I am so sorry but that was the straw to brake the dam!

I was on the phone calling other school that have been given a good report by others... I leave a msg with one! (who doesn't call back!)

The other school I call and talk to the principle who tells me all about his school! All about the anti bullying policy they have! How they help kids if they are struggling at ANY level! (almost sounds too good to be true)

I arrange for a meeting so that Allan and I can talk some more at the school! Again everything sounds really good!

We (Allan, me and the new principle) decide that if Kagens counselor thinks it a good idea then we will move the kids to the "new" school!

I talk to Kagens councilor and explain whats happening asking her what were her thoughts on moving Kagan to a new school! She said DO IT!!! Don't think twice about it! It will be the best thing you can do! And even offered to tell Kagen in session so she can help with any worries he has from it!

So from there it was rush like mad time to get everything set in place to transfer the kids to the new school!

On top of all that I had my last day at BIG W! And the next day I started my new job!!

I really hope that the kids go well at the NEW school!!

I GO IT!

YAY me!

I got the job! They rang today! I think I was jumping around on cloudle nine for about 2 hours after!!!

I have put my resignation letter in to Big W today! My last shift there will be next Thursday and I will start my new job Friday!!!

Job interview

Today I have a job interview and I have those pre interview
butterflies. Not having had a job interview for nine years makes it
worse.

When I sent in my application I said to myself I would be happy to at
the least get an interview!

The job is working with foster children in a residential house. It is
shift work so it will be working all at times of the day and night.....

Well wish me luck !!!!!

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