Sunday, October 16, 2011
My sweet sweet foster baby who grew into a wonderful flower..... We had flower from birth and watched her grow.. At two and half years old the powers to be decided it was time for her to try living with her birth family.... Sadly this past week she went home and I have cried a million tears... How I miss my flower.....
My prayer is that she is safe and loved.... Miss you so much Flower....
Monday, September 19, 2011
Is tonight and I feel so sad I keep thinking the little things that I need to get done and how I would work around it with Flower... then it hits she wont be here tonight...
Or what I am going to cook for dinner tonight and how to wokr flowers food intolreance into it ..............then it hits me she wont be here tonight.....
I think how will need to be back at 4 for when flower gets back from access and then its hits me she wont be here tonight...
now I fee like I dont want to be here tonight
Saturday, September 03, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
So if you can bare to hear any more read on!
After going back and forth on if I would send Flower with her Bubba I decided that its in Flowers best interest to have it with her! Its hers she loves Bubba.
SO today I sent it along only to get a msg from CW that while dropping off Flower to access the bparents said that the bubba IS NOT WELCOME AT their house AT ALL... That Flower DOES not sleep with Bubba at their house. And that Bubba was broken when we sent it.
Well that makes me want to blow my top you know the STEAM coming out of my ears type blow!
Why you ask? Well bios have photos on their facebook page of Flower ASLEEP hugging Bubba ? They are lying that she doesnt sleep with her! This Bubba isnt there for them its there for Flower and her comfort!?!?!!?!??!! W t ???????????????? How very selfish of these people and how sad for Flower
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Flower has a handmade "bubba" that we have been sending back and forth for her to have something that is hers and gives her comfort! She loves "bubba" and for a 2 year old she treats this so gentle with her... Well coming home from from access yesterday it wasnt sent home for her and Flower cried her self to sleep (there have been asked that they can forget anything else jsut dont forget "bubba")
SO I emailed today pleading they go and get it for her so we dont have another sad night, they went and picked her up and "bubba"s head was hanging off and was covered in dog hair and all dirty.....
I am so wild again and so sad for Flower am trying to get it fixed
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
Monday, August 08, 2011
after a requested meeting today was told that....
the next 3 weeks is the do or die of Flowers case.. if they can not pick up theit act (bios) that there will be desion that they will LOOK at stoping the restoration.
what ever happened the other week was enough for them to pull a days worths of access and to make them put in more check -ups. They have said that if they cannot pick up there act in the 3 weeks that its all down hill..
I cant help but think that if they could not get get their act into gear for 2 years then why does this next 3 weeks make a difference? And look if it comes down to it most likely they could DO it for 3 weeks... what about the REST of her life???????????????????
Saturday, July 23, 2011
preface to say that we are waiting on an appointment with a psychologist and that he has a nut allergy that when required needs an Epipen.
About a week and a half ago I came home from work and Kagen told me he wasn't going to eat his lunch. I questioned him why after 30 mins of no eating he said he was afraid to eat it, that there was nuts in it. There wasn't I made sure of that before I even bought the food home. But there was NO changing his mind. I let that meal slide thinking it was a one off.......
its now a week and half later and EVERY MEAL its the same thing not eating there is nuts in it....
Have talked to him, explained to him, got cranky with him, grounded him, nothing seems to make a difference.. I am at a loss as to what to do next...
He has become obsessed with reading every packet to see if there is nuts and will only eat if it does not have a word nuts. This makes things VERY VERY hard because as you know these days EVERYTHING says may contain or has been made on equipment that has had nuts.
I am so very stressed I dont know what do I can do and every meal has now turned into a battle ground