A long time away PART One

So much has happened and I really should have blogged about if only just to keep things clear in my head..... I need to start at the start.... Flower did come back to live with us... When she came back we didnt know at the time if she would be with us for longer or for life.... Flowers case went back to court and there was a lot of adjournments and for a while I really didn't think we would EVER get an answer... November 2011 she came back. It wasn't until October 2012 that we heard the news that long term orders had been granted. It was handed down that Flower would be in our care till she turns 18 years old.... We have also learned that this law now states that the bio parents have the right to apply to over turn this order IF they get there life back on track. That I have to say was a very hard pill to swallow but for now we are taking it on day at a time. In November 2012 my sweet dear Mum passed away. We got the phone call that she was not well and they maybe we needed to come and see her. We decided that we would pack up all the kids and made the big 16 hour drive to see Mum. When we arrived she was in a coma it was so hard to see her life like this. The next few days were a crazy long days sitting at the hospital hoping that we would hear something that would mean good news. Sadly that news would not come with all of her organs shutting down one by one. On the Saturday the doctors said there was no more they could do for her and that they would now just try and make her comfortable. Giving Mum so many pain meds that was really mind blowing trying to make her comfortable. At one point Mum was having an injection every 5 mins to try and settle her. Around 3am on the4th of November the nurse came into give her a wash. While turning her on to her side she made a horrible moaning sound, then they laid her back on to her back. It was not long after that she took her last breath passing away just after 4am...