Tuesday, December 16, 2008

And in a blink they are gone...

I packed all their gear and had them ready to for pick up at 9am...

The girls were so excited to be going.... Which just pulled on my heart....

Even though they have been told what was happening they really didn't understand what was happening...

I told Buttons how much I loved her and that I would miss her and it was ok to feel sad...

to which she said "I wont miss you... You have other kids to play with"
Maybe that was her way of telling me to keep my chin up......

Once the girls left I felt that piece of me had left too.... I came inside crying so hard..... Bit of a loss of what to do with myself... Arliah was with Nanny and the twins at school and AL at work the house was so quite......

So I pulled the sheets of the girls bed to wash and cried some more.....

This is so very hard.....

this song keeps going around in my head

15 comments:

cheepette8 said...

My heart hurts for you. I'm saying prayers that everything goes well.

Mom 2 six said...

I am thinking of you !

Torina said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope the kids are in a good place.

living4him5 said...

Oh, I am so sorry for your loss sweet friend. I will be praying for you as you feel.

Foster parents are angels on earth. You and you husband are doing a wonderful mission.

God bless you!
Hugs!!!
Amy

Paula said...

So sad. I'm sorry. I know you've made an impact on their lives that they will hold inside forever.

Maggie said...

Hugs from across the ocean, Chelley.

Terri said...

I'm so sorry Chelly! Just think of the awesome job you did with them and they will always remember and love you! ALWAYS!!!!

Kim said...

So sorry you are hurting Chelley. I hope better days are headed your way. Praying they are.

Kim

Anonymous said...

"There's better times to come, there's better days ahead, if you believe..."

OziMum said...

Hey, my friend! You did a wonderful, wonderful thing!

Thinking of you.

Christine said...

I am so sorry. THis must be very hard. And Christmas too, it must not be easy on the girls either. Big Hugs.

Andrea said...

Oh Pumpkin,
I am so sorry that you are sad. I loved the little ones comment, though.
Out of the mouths of babes.
And you know what? She is right.
You handled this "trial run" so well..You will always have LOTS and LOTS of kids to play with.

xoxo,
A

Anonymous said...

Chelley, oh what can I say.. I know there is no words to ease your pain. You did a amazing job with the girls and you need to know that.. Now concintrate on those 3 beautiful children you have and hug and kiss them!! If you need me please please emial me...

Stacey G. said...

The last note was from me.. Stacey G.

cloudmaster said...

I can only imagine how hard this is for you. We are beginning that process with our first foster child on Monday. I dread that last day.