Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Didnt I just say?

I am sure that I just told you all that I wouldn't be working in the Children's Respite House! My how thing can change! After "happily" completing my last shadow shift in the adults house and feeling GOOD to go on my own! I get a phone call on Friday night asking me to sign the shift forms for the Respite house! Now been a bit dazed and confused (my new normal) I say "no I am not in that house I am in the adult homes" Now there is a bigger state of confusion from me and the lady on the other end of the phone! So after about 4 phone calls and one of them been to my line manager! I find out that I have been moved to the Respite House!! Woohoo!! And OMGoonedssss I haven't done ANY ANY shadow shifts there and my first LIVE shift starts in only 4 days!!!

(side note here I am not GREAT on change I LIVE too much in my own little comfort zone! And I just felt like I was getting me feet on the ground with the Adult homes!)

Yes I know I said I REALLY REALLY want to work in the Respite House! BUT AGHH!!! So I was able to get in ONE shadow shift in on a day that the Respite House had only 2 boys in! These two boys both have Autism and have the worst Behaviors of all of the kids that come into the home!

It started and I felt a bit like a fish out of water! (And one moment of rushing to the bathroom to puke my breakfast) I started to feel a little better and then was confronted with one of the boys who doesn't like change doesn't like new staff and I was both! SO I was hit and kicked and almost bitten! It was so confronting! I both scared and crapping my undies and was so hard trying not to show this on the outside! I got home and felt both physically and mentally drained! I had read about these Behaviors but to be in the firing line was a whole different story!

Well in a few hours I am ON my first REAL shift and have so much more I need to learn! I do feel that this job will be an ever changing always learning job so I am going to need to toughen up!

If any one is still reading LOL and I havent drove you all mad! If you have any GREAT info on Autism - books, web sites etc let me know!


Anonymous said...

Whew! Sounds stressful! Hang in there!

Terri said...

I can tell how excited you are!!! Great job Chelley!!!

Andrea said...

you are going 2 b great!


Margaret M said...

I work with autistic kids every day! I'll be happy to answer any questions you have. They are all a puzzle and they are all different. They are AMAZING! Hugs to you and sending lots of positive vibes your way!

Jen said...

Oh Chel - big hugs for you. I know how much you wanted this work - but the reality can be so different! Having said that I truly believe you are the right person for the job and you'll be so great with the kids once you settle into it. Good on you - you are a truly special person. I have a very dear friend who has 3 boys - 2 of which are Autistic. If you need any advice I can let her know and then send her email address if it helps.
Jen and Eb

His Hands His Feet Today said...

Thanks for your sweet commments on my blog! Yes, its okay to link to yours :)

I look fwd to getting to know you better!!!!