2010..... Stay on track!

Having to sit down and try and write this post a few times wanting to set some clear goals for 2010...

I have started and then stopped and started again. I have found it hard to define what I want out of this year. Arliah my baby (who at 5 isn't a baby anymore) will start school in the first week in FEB. So all 3 of my bios will be at school and that will leave Flower at home.

Flower well she may be here she may not! Flowers case goes to court the middle of FEB and baring any more hiccups we will know what the plan is for her. The options are

1: court order return to parents (this been my worst case as they can return her the same day as the court orders! And leaving me all alone at home at the same time in FEB)

2: restoration to parents over a set period of time, this could range from 3 - 6 months with some weekend overnight visits to bios. The time she spends will increase each time until she is spending more time with them than us.

3: Court ruling of a 1,2,3 or 18 year older. With it returning to court after the allotted time frames. (Apart from the 18 year order and I really do think that this order will not be done.)


So Flower wise it is up and down like a mini roller coaster! And trying to work on my own feelings, thoughts and getting maybe little of that thing called ME time has been hard!

I want to do more! I want to help more!

HOW WHAT and WHO is what I need to work on!

Another thing is surrounding myself with people that do care about what I want in life. I feel like there are people in my life that are dragging me down like a chain and ball.