May is almost over? Wow How did that happen?

It has been crazy busy here!

Study study study work work work and 4 kids oi oi oi oi! Really I feel like some days I am just chasing my tail!

I went to Sydney for a workshop for my study! Left home at 3am Friday got on the bus from hell, 30 drunk smelly UNI students who just wanted to chat and fart and get me intoxicated by the fumes they were letting off! Arriving in Sydney at almost 10pm Friday night! Met by Amber who looked out for me! Spent two full days in workshops and was tested AND PASSED! Out to dinner the Saturday night with new old friends! And back in the train home at 6am Monday and getting home at 8pm Monday night to my kids who missed me like CRAZY~

Flower is still here and still going to access 3 times a week for 3 hours at a time. We are waiting on word to see what will be the next step up or down from here but I have gone into more of that on my foster blog..

Oh and I got a tattoo! They were having a fundraiser here and the tattoo artist wanted to tattoo 65 roses for cystic fibrosis day! So I rang and joined in! All the money is going to a GREAT GREAT cause and after reading the following blogs for a while now I thought WHY NOT!

Love the smell of babies!

I really have to say how much I am really enjoying Flowers stay with us!! There is something about newborns there smell and their innocence! I am getting as many cuddles as I can without spoiling her :P

Flower is sleeping eating and pooping in four hour stretches! (well not pooping that much)

We don't know much more about what her court orders will be. Just that she could be gone as soon as next week and been staying as long.. Well as long as they need her to stay!

Trying to keep the mind set of "ENOJOY EVERY moment that she is here"

I have totally been getting some funny looks around town! People looking at me then at Flower and you can seen them thinking "hmmm I am sure she was pregnant last week!" Then that leeds into the all the questions of who she is? why do we have her? And some way to personal questions that really irks me!

And one question I GET all the time is "HOW CAN YOU GIVE HER BACK?"

And I am not lying when I say that YES it will be hard but I have always known that SHE is not mine and that there is mostly likely going back to bio parents! I do hope that she is here a little longer (for my own selfish reasons)

OH and there is a little something on the FOSTER BLOG!

Shes here!!

Will be updating my foster blog soon!

Energizer Bunny has gone home...

Wow that was pretty quick!

But glad he is going home to bio mum...

I think Allan might have got attached to him.... They really clicked!

Prayers that he will be safe and bio mum will be able to get the help she needs.....

monthly resolutions

I love reading busy intersection

when I was over there today Torina posted about another blog Never a Dull MomentNever A Dull Moment: Adopting from Foster Care

Who has asked to do a monthly resolution! Well I totaly suck at the whole year ones but I bet I could do a month well I am hoping I can!!!

SO I am in!

So mine for this month are

Declutter! And deep CLEAN ( I hate hate this)

Go walking at least 2-3 times a week

Good luck and I hope you are all want to give this monthly resolutions a try!

My Foster Blog is updated (private)

Do I sound like I am whining?

Sorry for the one line of blah! But it is so much how I feel! I have no get up and go! It has got up and went!

I feel like a walking zombie so much that I went to the doctors and asked him to check me over!

He ordered that many blood tests that when they took nine of those little bottle thingys!

My foster girls are starting transition from the 15th and it will go from the Monday to the Friday with the girls spending all day out and coming back here at night. I think it is going to be a very stressful week!

This is the silly season and with all the kids needing to be at something or somewhere almost every other night it really isn't giving me time to try and get on top of things.....

The house is really behind housework wise I wish a little fairy could come and do a major clean for me!

I have family arriving for Christmas right in the middle of transition week to add to the drama! Work is SUPER busy and really wish I didn't have to go there!!

I think I could just find a nice little spot and curl up and go to sleep for a week.....

I need to find the Christmas spirit and get my act into gear!
I promise this will be last depressing post for a while I am will find my mojo soon!

a more detailed post about my foster girls is on my Foster Blog (private)

Gone by Christmas!

Court was today and we found out that Button and Lil Miss will be gone by Christmas!

They will start transition from the 12th of Dec!

I am strangely ok about this..... (sad hell yeah)

but I having really been preparing myself......

The girls are going to extended family....

a more detailed post will be on my Foster Blog (private)

They will be leaving with a piece of me.. My heart....