May is almost over? Wow How did that happen?

It has been crazy busy here!

Study study study work work work and 4 kids oi oi oi oi! Really I feel like some days I am just chasing my tail!

I went to Sydney for a workshop for my study! Left home at 3am Friday got on the bus from hell, 30 drunk smelly UNI students who just wanted to chat and fart and get me intoxicated by the fumes they were letting off! Arriving in Sydney at almost 10pm Friday night! Met by Amber who looked out for me! Spent two full days in workshops and was tested AND PASSED! Out to dinner the Saturday night with new old friends! And back in the train home at 6am Monday and getting home at 8pm Monday night to my kids who missed me like CRAZY~

Flower is still here and still going to access 3 times a week for 3 hours at a time. We are waiting on word to see what will be the next step up or down from here but I have gone into more of that on my foster blog..

Oh and I got a tattoo! They were having a fundraiser here and the tattoo artist wanted to tattoo 65 roses for cystic fibrosis day! So I rang and joined in! All the money is going to a GREAT GREAT cause and after reading the following blogs for a while now I thought WHY NOT!

Mama's got a new job!

AND the hours are perfect!

Tuesday and Wednesday from 9am - 1pm

Sweet As!!!!

I am going to be a outreach worker with a place here called Toy Library that provides a service for families to borrow toys, enjoy time with their children. Another person and I will take toys out to kids that cant make it in to the Toy Library...

I am pretty excited!! YAY ME!

Oh and a lil pic of me and my bithday GAL

venting.. Feeling like a YO YO

As you know I started my new job 3 months ago and its been up and down to say the least!

Don't get me wrong I wanted this job!

Just wasn't mentally ready for the learning curve of changing to whole new profession!

In this job until all police checks came back I worked in what is called buddy shifts getting to experience different areas! At one point I had a massive panic attack and was ready to throw it all in!

But I stuck it out knowing that YES change is a BIG part of life!

3 day before going on my solo shifts I was rung and told that I would go from working with the Adults to working with the kids (I had not DONE ANY shadow shifts with them)

SO went from feeling almost comfortable going alone to OMGooodness back at the start again!!!!

But again I got though it and I AM REALLY REALLY enjoying working with the kids!! I look forward to GOING to work!

Until the other day when the boss turned around and said I only there for another month then I will be back working with the adults!

TO SAY I was bummed would be a HUGE UNDERSTATMENT! I really love working where I am now! And I REALLY do not want to keep going back and forth.. I feel like I am starting again now!I also feel that I am gaining the trust of the kids!!! These kids dont like change.

SO I asked my boss if I can have a chat with her soon to work out what could be done... I also told Al what I was doing and how I was feeling...
He got upset and pretty much shot me down in flames for everything wanting to bring this up!

SO here are my questions....

1 only been in the job such a small amount of time what rights do I have?

2 can I ask to be left where I am? (even if I ask for drop in hours to fit in take on the callin hours when someone gets sick)

3 What do I say to Al??
I want to tell him he is been unfair! I have surported him in his 3 job changes!?!?

I need someone somewhere to ask these questions.......

Didnt I just say?

I am sure that I just told you all that I wouldn't be working in the Children's Respite House! My how thing can change! After "happily" completing my last shadow shift in the adults house and feeling GOOD to go on my own! I get a phone call on Friday night asking me to sign the shift forms for the Respite house! Now been a bit dazed and confused (my new normal) I say "no I am not in that house I am in the adult homes" Now there is a bigger state of confusion from me and the lady on the other end of the phone! So after about 4 phone calls and one of them been to my line manager! I find out that I have been moved to the Respite House!! Woohoo!! And OMGoonedssss I haven't done ANY ANY shadow shifts there and my first LIVE shift starts in only 4 days!!!

(side note here I am not GREAT on change I LIVE too much in my own little comfort zone! And I just felt like I was getting me feet on the ground with the Adult homes!)

Yes I know I said I REALLY REALLY want to work in the Respite House! BUT AGHH!!! So I was able to get in ONE shadow shift in on a day that the Respite House had only 2 boys in! These two boys both have Autism and have the worst Behaviors of all of the kids that come into the home!

It started and I felt a bit like a fish out of water! (And one moment of rushing to the bathroom to puke my breakfast) I started to feel a little better and then was confronted with one of the boys who doesn't like change doesn't like new staff and I was both! SO I was hit and kicked and almost bitten! It was so confronting! I both scared and crapping my undies and was so hard trying not to show this on the outside! I got home and felt both physically and mentally drained! I had read about these Behaviors but to be in the firing line was a whole different story!

Well in a few hours I am ON my first REAL shift and have so much more I need to learn! I do feel that this job will be an ever changing always learning job so I am going to need to toughen up!

If any one is still reading LOL and I havent drove you all mad! If you have any GREAT info on Autism - books, web sites etc let me know!

Geting into the swing of work! And week One! And!!!

This week has been a really good week!

I have almost stuck to my diet! LOL Broke out today and had a not so great lunch today! But the rest of the week I went really well!! And I got out and exercised 3 times this week so I can say week one of diet did ok!! I will weight myself on Monday!


I worked this week and really have started to feel SO much better about work!! I don't feel like I am going to totally lose my mind! Knowledge is power and the more I learn the more I don't feel so worried!! AND IN no way do I know everything about my job!

I also get to work in the kids house this week so I am looking forward to doing that! More learning heheh Hey brain might explode :P

WE MAY have a foster care placement coming up! But still waiting for more info on that!! All I know so far is it is a BOY who is 3!